What Do I Have To Offer?

How can something that felt so right, now feel so wrong? Coming to CBC has really messed with me. I had everything planned out and just everything was mapped out, and now I have absolutely no clue what I'm doing. I know I'm not here by mistake or accident, and that God has put me here for an exact reason, but right now it's just not coming in clear. The song Strength Will Rise As We Wait Upon the Lord just popped into my head and right now, I need to wait upon Him. I know He hears everything I say and He knows exactly what I'm going through and how I feel....But I just have to let be in His timing and not when I feel He should do it. It's not easy to say the least, but I am depending on His strength and His alone!!! I thank God for continuing to bless me and pour into my life, but mostly sending me people or bringing them into my life for support! God bless....

Home, Sweet Home

Well I made it home and in one piece! It was a long trip coming down to the end of the journey!! I never sleep when I travel for some odd reason, and so everyone was like "just sleep please!!," and I'm like "no really I can't!!" Ever since I was little I could never sleep on a road trip, and so I would stay up all night talking to mom while everyone else was sleeping! After we dropped Josiah off I took over driving and it was like an hour later I just couldn't stay awake!! I had to pee really bad and we needed gas, so Matt said that he would take over driving until we dropped Amy off and then I took over again because it was only like 30 minutes from home at that point. So we pull in to my house at 6 o'clock and I'm getting out of the car and it's freezing, so I turn to Matt and I'm like quick hand me my pants!!! He was laughing and he goes, so you know how awful that sounds?! But I was in shorts and a t-shirt!! So I put my sweatpants on and we make a run to the door where my dad is waiting to leave for work!!! Mom was in the kitchen making coffee and all we really wanted to do was crash!!! So I show Matt his room and I was planning on staying up, but I was sitting next to mom on the couch and she pushed me over and I was out!! Until she came and woke me up about an hour later to tell me Molly had been jumping on Matt and he was now up!! I felt so bad, but it was good timing considering we had to eat and get him to the train station!! So Saturday was a very eventful day to say the least!!! I have five more days until I have to go back and for now I'm spending as much time with the family as possible!! God bless!!