I'll Love You Tomorrow

Tomorrow is going to be filled with stress, excitement, and all the good things that come along with traveling for 16 hours with some of the best people ever. I have a New Testament test at 7:30 and then my two other classes we aren't doing anything but watching movies and playing games. Then I'm heading to chapel and sitting with my traveling buddies. We are then going to run to Zee's to get a to go lunch and head out on the road! We have already decided the gas situation, driving rotation, and all the little details that come along with it. We are dropping Josiah off first, then Amy and then Matt and I are going to my house to crash for a couple hours and then I'm taking him to the train station. 

Then on the way back here, I'm picking Matt up on Friday from the train station, he is spending the night. Then it's bright and early, we are heading out at like 3 am. We have to pick Amy up first and then we are heading to the turnpike. We will get to St. Louis at about 3 to pick Josiah up at the airport. But it's going to be nice to be home and just be able to spend time with my family. I can't wait to be able to talk to my mom and dad face to face. I love being able to sit down and have a conversation and just fellowshipping with them. It's the best thing ever. Don't get me wrong I can do it over the phone, but I love it more when it's face to face!!! I'm just excited in general. Please pray that we have a safe trip home and we have extremely great time!! God bless....

Friday Here I Come

Friday is only a couple days away! That's what I have to keep reminding myself. Friday is the start of my spring break and I'm so excited that I think I might burst soon. After chapel, me and 3 others are getting some lunch to go from our lunch room/dining hall. Then on the road again for the 16 hour drive home. We have our routine set up on how we are going to go about with the drivers. I will start and we will have a co-pilot and one in the back sleeping because she doesn't do long drives and the other sleeping to get rested up for his share. When I'm tired the sleeper in the back will go up front, I'll move to the co-pilot seat and the co-pilot will go to the sleeper in the back. We will do this the whole way home. I have about 3 more days until then and I'm getting packed and finishing up the little odds and ends that need done before I leave. This is the time when it seems a lot of people are upset and stressed, but not me!! I can't wait. I have everything in order down to the wire and now all I have to do is just be ready for that sweet drive home. I'm heading to bed extremely early on Thursday 1. because I have a 7:30 and 2. because I need some rest before the big day!!! May the Lord keep you safe and bless you!!

Use What Your Momma Gave You!!

A couple of days ago, I was talking to some of the girls that live on my floor, it was almost like a pow wow in my suite mate's room. We were talking about girlie things and the subject came up of when we all get married. I've never wanted to be one of those wives who sit in the back seat almost like a passenger to my husband. My thing is, that if I'm going to go to college and get loans then I want to actually use my degree. I want my own ministry because I know it's something that God has placed on my heart and He put it there for a reason! I don't want to be just some man's wife who "stays in kitchen!" God create us so that we were a help mate to man/our husbands, and He placed things on all our hearts for a reason. If you are a pastor's wife I don't mean to offend you and that's perfectly fine if you are content with the ministry you have, but for me I won't be content until I can do the will of God in my life and with my ministry. 

For me, not following God's will for my life, hasn't gotten me far. I know a lot of people feel the same way, and when you know the truth and the path you're supposed to be on and you're not, you hurt and I know for me, I feel so guilty. If we aren't going to be willing to do what God has placed on our hearts, we will affect the people around us and ultimately God could use someone else! I don't want to be the person who missed it, or the one that God told me something and I didn't do it!! I encourage you to just press into God with all your heart and just keep seeking after Him. Seek after that path that has been laid before you, and just seek what the next step in the plan is!! God will reveal it to you, but you have to become desperate for Him!!! 

Ain't No Mountain....!

It has been a whole month living here at college and I can honestly say that it has been the best month ever. There was two days where I was a little homesick, but it doesn't help that they were just really bad days. Other than that living here has been amazing. School is great and I've found some pretty "righteous" (see Finding Nemo to understand) friends who are just the best. We have decided that we are triplets though to say the least. Katy, my roommate, Chelsea, my suite mate and then finally came me. We are basically attached at the hip, except when Katy is with her boyfriend, but then again Chelsea and I don't mind because it gives us some bonding time and just be able to talk. 

I've met some really cool girls that play basketball, and I've been invited on several occasions to join them in pick up games. We have a game coming up on the 17th, aka my birthday. We are playing our rivals and I'm pretty sure that if we can get everyone to practice we are going to have an unstoppable team. We have practice tomorrow right before the boys game, so I have to practice and then quick get cleaned up to work/ record the boys basketball games! It's going to be such a long day, but I'm ready for it. 

I was actually planning on getting up to go to breakfast and get up a little earlier so I can spend more time with God. It's funny how writing a media paper for a composition class really opens your mind to the wonders anew of God. I'm writing mine about Iron Man and the struggles that he goes to in order to get justice, but we also have to relate it to the Christian walk. There was a statement in it where I made this remark "Isn't it funny how superheroes have the next step or the rest of the plan figured out, but as Christians we never know the next step and in order to find it we have to press into God?" But it's so true, the actors and actresses always have the next step, but the problem with that is, they never show the fall. As Christians or even just in general when we have a fall it's almost thrown in our faces and we are left standing alone to pick up the pieces and put it all back together, but that's not true. God is the one who is with us picking it up and putting it back, even when we feel alone, we have to be still and listen to that still small voice telling us the next step and the next part of the plan. I would just encourage you to keep pressing in and keep listening for that still small voice, because believe it or not, it's there, there's just to much going on in the background to hear it. God bless and goodnight! 

Writing Papers....haha that's funny right there

Spiritual Emphasis

This past week here at CBC was spiritual emphasis week. We have a guest speaker or two come in and they preach and it's supposed to be about deepening your walk with Christ. This week we had Mark Batterson, who is just awesome and he is from around the area where my family is, preach and to say the least I was in awe of God. Several times I fought with myself about all the other days in life or in chapel, when we should be giving our all and a lot of the times we just go through the motions. I was trying to put it on the back burner of my brain, but my heart was wrestling with it the whole time. Here is the thing, we get or we want to get so deep with God on certain weeks, or days, when really we should just give Him our all, all the time. Many times I find my self struggling with just giving Him my all, because of some distraction or something that I'm struggling with, but the sooner you give it to Him the better. As humans we let our minds wonder and often it goes the whole service to the point where we didn't know, but we let the time zoom by and it's at the end of service and it's the alter call. 

God challenged me this week to just give Him my all and hold nothing back. It doesn't matter what others say or think about me, because God knows my heart and that's all that really matters. For many of us we hold back because we are scared about our reputation, or what our friends might say, but if you start pressing in, majority of times everyone around is going to too. I would just encourage you to just continue to push in and press into Him even more. God bless and good night

let me put him to the test!!

This week is spiritual emphasis week, and it is a great week to be at CBC!! Our speaker today was Mark Batterson, and what a Godly man is he! When I was going to Trinidad two summers ago, our youth pastor, Tony Sebastian, wanted us to read "In A Pit With A Lion On A Snowy Day" and let me tell you what a great book it was. When I was younger I hated to read, I would often cry myself to sleep because I had a hard time pronouncing my words. It wasn't until I got to middle school when I finally grew out of that stage and was able to find books that fit my imagination. When I first started reading this book, I have to admit, I thought it was another one of those feel good books that was going to be boring. To my surprise and judgmental thoughts, I was proven wrong. God began speaking to me while I was reading that book. One of the best lines he says in that book is "If you only have good days, how are you ever going to know when you have a great day?!" So many times we pray "oh God, please let this be a good day!" but Mark is right. How are we ever going to know when we have a really good day if we don't have anything to compare them with. 

That's also how it is a lot of times in our own spiritual walk with Christ! We want good days where we hear God and that's how we want it all the time, but that's not how He works. We have to wait upon the Lord and trust in Him and know that in the quite and stillness He satisfies and He is working. Just because you can't hear Him doesn't mean that He's not there. He is the one who is walking you through the difficult times and ultimately He is the footprints in the sand that we only see one set! He is good all the time, all the time He is good!! We just need to hold stead fast and totally rely on Him for all our needs, but just know that God provides. That doesn't mean that you get yourself into a slew of trouble, but you just learn to trust more and know that when everyone else has turned their back on you, He is right there holding out a hand, helping you up! God bless!!