OOO, Home

Oh how sweet 'tis to be home....It's been awhile since I lasted blogged, but there has been so many things that have come up along the way as usual! For two weeks I have stayed up until about 2 in the morning and then turn around and wake up at 5 so I could finish papers or study....it's been stressful to say the least. For the past two nights though I haven't had any homework or anything to do, so I got to pack and get some sleep! Yesterday I got to fly home and get to spend Easter with my family, well kind of. I have to fly back on Sunday morning so I don't get to totally spend Easter with them, but it gives me sometime with them! Both of my flights arrived early and so that meant I got home earlier, it was great! My grandparents are coming down tomorrow and my brother is coming up then too....I'm so excited to see everyone and just be able to spend time with them!!! 

What Do I Have To Offer?

How can something that felt so right, now feel so wrong? Coming to CBC has really messed with me. I had everything planned out and just everything was mapped out, and now I have absolutely no clue what I'm doing. I know I'm not here by mistake or accident, and that God has put me here for an exact reason, but right now it's just not coming in clear. The song Strength Will Rise As We Wait Upon the Lord just popped into my head and right now, I need to wait upon Him. I know He hears everything I say and He knows exactly what I'm going through and how I feel....But I just have to let be in His timing and not when I feel He should do it. It's not easy to say the least, but I am depending on His strength and His alone!!! I thank God for continuing to bless me and pour into my life, but mostly sending me people or bringing them into my life for support! God bless....

Home, Sweet Home

Well I made it home and in one piece! It was a long trip coming down to the end of the journey!! I never sleep when I travel for some odd reason, and so everyone was like "just sleep please!!," and I'm like "no really I can't!!" Ever since I was little I could never sleep on a road trip, and so I would stay up all night talking to mom while everyone else was sleeping! After we dropped Josiah off I took over driving and it was like an hour later I just couldn't stay awake!! I had to pee really bad and we needed gas, so Matt said that he would take over driving until we dropped Amy off and then I took over again because it was only like 30 minutes from home at that point. So we pull in to my house at 6 o'clock and I'm getting out of the car and it's freezing, so I turn to Matt and I'm like quick hand me my pants!!! He was laughing and he goes, so you know how awful that sounds?! But I was in shorts and a t-shirt!! So I put my sweatpants on and we make a run to the door where my dad is waiting to leave for work!!! Mom was in the kitchen making coffee and all we really wanted to do was crash!!! So I show Matt his room and I was planning on staying up, but I was sitting next to mom on the couch and she pushed me over and I was out!! Until she came and woke me up about an hour later to tell me Molly had been jumping on Matt and he was now up!! I felt so bad, but it was good timing considering we had to eat and get him to the train station!! So Saturday was a very eventful day to say the least!!! I have five more days until I have to go back and for now I'm spending as much time with the family as possible!! God bless!!

I'll Love You Tomorrow

Tomorrow is going to be filled with stress, excitement, and all the good things that come along with traveling for 16 hours with some of the best people ever. I have a New Testament test at 7:30 and then my two other classes we aren't doing anything but watching movies and playing games. Then I'm heading to chapel and sitting with my traveling buddies. We are then going to run to Zee's to get a to go lunch and head out on the road! We have already decided the gas situation, driving rotation, and all the little details that come along with it. We are dropping Josiah off first, then Amy and then Matt and I are going to my house to crash for a couple hours and then I'm taking him to the train station. 

Then on the way back here, I'm picking Matt up on Friday from the train station, he is spending the night. Then it's bright and early, we are heading out at like 3 am. We have to pick Amy up first and then we are heading to the turnpike. We will get to St. Louis at about 3 to pick Josiah up at the airport. But it's going to be nice to be home and just be able to spend time with my family. I can't wait to be able to talk to my mom and dad face to face. I love being able to sit down and have a conversation and just fellowshipping with them. It's the best thing ever. Don't get me wrong I can do it over the phone, but I love it more when it's face to face!!! I'm just excited in general. Please pray that we have a safe trip home and we have extremely great time!! God bless....

Friday Here I Come

Friday is only a couple days away! That's what I have to keep reminding myself. Friday is the start of my spring break and I'm so excited that I think I might burst soon. After chapel, me and 3 others are getting some lunch to go from our lunch room/dining hall. Then on the road again for the 16 hour drive home. We have our routine set up on how we are going to go about with the drivers. I will start and we will have a co-pilot and one in the back sleeping because she doesn't do long drives and the other sleeping to get rested up for his share. When I'm tired the sleeper in the back will go up front, I'll move to the co-pilot seat and the co-pilot will go to the sleeper in the back. We will do this the whole way home. I have about 3 more days until then and I'm getting packed and finishing up the little odds and ends that need done before I leave. This is the time when it seems a lot of people are upset and stressed, but not me!! I can't wait. I have everything in order down to the wire and now all I have to do is just be ready for that sweet drive home. I'm heading to bed extremely early on Thursday 1. because I have a 7:30 and 2. because I need some rest before the big day!!! May the Lord keep you safe and bless you!!

Use What Your Momma Gave You!!

A couple of days ago, I was talking to some of the girls that live on my floor, it was almost like a pow wow in my suite mate's room. We were talking about girlie things and the subject came up of when we all get married. I've never wanted to be one of those wives who sit in the back seat almost like a passenger to my husband. My thing is, that if I'm going to go to college and get loans then I want to actually use my degree. I want my own ministry because I know it's something that God has placed on my heart and He put it there for a reason! I don't want to be just some man's wife who "stays in kitchen!" God create us so that we were a help mate to man/our husbands, and He placed things on all our hearts for a reason. If you are a pastor's wife I don't mean to offend you and that's perfectly fine if you are content with the ministry you have, but for me I won't be content until I can do the will of God in my life and with my ministry. 

For me, not following God's will for my life, hasn't gotten me far. I know a lot of people feel the same way, and when you know the truth and the path you're supposed to be on and you're not, you hurt and I know for me, I feel so guilty. If we aren't going to be willing to do what God has placed on our hearts, we will affect the people around us and ultimately God could use someone else! I don't want to be the person who missed it, or the one that God told me something and I didn't do it!! I encourage you to just press into God with all your heart and just keep seeking after Him. Seek after that path that has been laid before you, and just seek what the next step in the plan is!! God will reveal it to you, but you have to become desperate for Him!!! 

Ain't No Mountain....!

It has been a whole month living here at college and I can honestly say that it has been the best month ever. There was two days where I was a little homesick, but it doesn't help that they were just really bad days. Other than that living here has been amazing. School is great and I've found some pretty "righteous" (see Finding Nemo to understand) friends who are just the best. We have decided that we are triplets though to say the least. Katy, my roommate, Chelsea, my suite mate and then finally came me. We are basically attached at the hip, except when Katy is with her boyfriend, but then again Chelsea and I don't mind because it gives us some bonding time and just be able to talk. 

I've met some really cool girls that play basketball, and I've been invited on several occasions to join them in pick up games. We have a game coming up on the 17th, aka my birthday. We are playing our rivals and I'm pretty sure that if we can get everyone to practice we are going to have an unstoppable team. We have practice tomorrow right before the boys game, so I have to practice and then quick get cleaned up to work/ record the boys basketball games! It's going to be such a long day, but I'm ready for it. 

I was actually planning on getting up to go to breakfast and get up a little earlier so I can spend more time with God. It's funny how writing a media paper for a composition class really opens your mind to the wonders anew of God. I'm writing mine about Iron Man and the struggles that he goes to in order to get justice, but we also have to relate it to the Christian walk. There was a statement in it where I made this remark "Isn't it funny how superheroes have the next step or the rest of the plan figured out, but as Christians we never know the next step and in order to find it we have to press into God?" But it's so true, the actors and actresses always have the next step, but the problem with that is, they never show the fall. As Christians or even just in general when we have a fall it's almost thrown in our faces and we are left standing alone to pick up the pieces and put it all back together, but that's not true. God is the one who is with us picking it up and putting it back, even when we feel alone, we have to be still and listen to that still small voice telling us the next step and the next part of the plan. I would just encourage you to keep pressing in and keep listening for that still small voice, because believe it or not, it's there, there's just to much going on in the background to hear it. God bless and goodnight!